The Choice of Ignorance
They say “Knowledge is Power,” but no one ever says “Knowledge is Grief.” Solomon in Ecclesiastes 1:18 states the most profound statement being the wisest man that ever lived on this earth.
“For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief”
This scripture struck me to my core because I am in a season of grieving the death of a full generation. I just made it back home from burying my great aunt who was the last of her generation in our family.
““Generations come and generations go, but the earth remains forever.””
“No one remembers the former generations and even those yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow them.” - Ecclesiastes 1:11
I am so conflicted as I am writing this because I realize that I am currently grieving two things simultaneously and only God can comfort me through this.
Please hear what I am about to say with an open heart. Suite Six25 is apart of my short story during my lifetime on this Earth. In the midst of bringing this to pass, there is a lot of knowledge I am having to acquire and there is a grieving in my soul as I go through this journey.
So I ask myself what is the point in:
Grieving generations that will not be remembered?
Gaining more knowledge to be “successful” in business when I or it won’t be remembered?
The holy spirit just gave me my answer. What I am doing now will not be remembered, but at the end of it all, I will have helped people discover a savior in their lives, that will be with them for an eternity. It feels pointless when looking at it from a personal perspective, but the whole point is that I am taking myself out of it. I asked to be used by God and this is my pathway of being His vessel. I literally die to myself and live sacrificially for Him.
This has become such a cliche saying, but I literally have to let go and let God. He’s got it all in His hands and I have to keep my faith in knowing simply that.
There are so many contradicting thoughts running through my mind as I unlearn what I thought was right for so many years of my life. The knowledge that I am gaining is pointless without God in it. He will keep me grounded as I grow through these life challenges.
It sounds crazy, but I’d rather make the choice to be ignorant (lack knowledge) than to add to the heavy grief I am already feeling. This is contrary to our society and culture, but maybe … just maybe, the less I know, the more comfort I can have in my faith walk with God.
I’m tired of grieving. Pray for me friends.
