Blinding of the Present
Yikes. It’s amazing how blind you can be when you’re so up close to a situation or circumstance. That was me a few years ago. I was watching some videos in my iPhone and literally thought, “I am so happy for growth.”
I realized, in that season I really thought that I was doing something - like I had my stuff together. Low and behold, I was not in a good place. This made me think about how I view current seasons in my life. In the moment, I really thought that I was doing my best until the scales were removed from my eyes.
Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, and after taking some food, he regained his strength. - Acts 9: 17-19
(There is so much to unpack in this scripture, I will be doing an entire post on this)👆🏼
My view about how I handled life was so jacked up. And today, I think about what it is that I am not seeing now, that I will a few years from now.
I thank God for His grace. This revelation solidified my need to partake in His bread DAILY. We can always be better than where we are. It doesn’t stop. No matter the age. Most likely we will fall short, even at our best, but there is comfort in knowing how God lovingly corrects us to make us better and to fulfill the purpose he has placed in us.
I was so hard on myself when looking at those videos. I really, really didn’t like the person I saw- almost to an extent of being disgusted at my mindset. I had to check myself in that moment and literally say, “stop talking to God’s daughter that way.”
I don’t understand how He deals with all of the craziness of His children, but Proverbs 3:5-6 says “ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways submit to Him, and he will make your paths straight.”
It was a humbling moment for me. My God is omnipresent (present everywhere at the same time), omniscient (all knowing) and I value that more today than I ever have in my life. I was blinded by my present in the past, but He knows what he has planned for me. I know I have to stay connected to Him and let Him order my steps, to be of better service to those around me.
My advice to you is to be mindful and pray for God to reveal what you are not seeing in the moment. Press to become a better person each day, but be gentle with yourself. I love you. You got this.
